Running away

     There is something I have noticed about the dating world and people in it, it’s almost like after your on the proverbial market for a while because you’ve been hurt, once someone gets close to you and you feel your wall crumbling down why is it that we push them away? It almost feels like someone is turning up the heat full blast but instead it’s your anxiety level, do you know what I mean it becomes hard to breathe and you can’t think straight. You just want things to settle down; both your friends and your conscience are telling you to just relax he or she is great for you just go with the flow and enjoy, but you can’t instead you find your fear is stronger than your dreams of love. See there is one thing though when you decide to tell that special someone what’s on your mind and how you’re feeling it doesn’t always go the way you planned. If you’re not careful they may think you don’t want to continue the relationship and they say “well if you need space just say the word”, and you think that is what you wanted to hear until you hear it. As soon as you hear those words you get this painful knot in your stomach like you were just punched, then you realize you didn’t really want the space you just wanted to know you had that option. Then you hear yourself thinking “What the hell did I do, I don’t want to lose him/her how can I fix it”? I understand the fear I really do I mean who out there has not experienced this but why do we let it become a pattern, people change their behaviors all the time but for some reason after a broken heart that is the hardest behavior to change why is that? We simply just stop letting people in and we are just so scared of the heartache, but wait is it pain we are afraid of or the trust we don’t want broken again? See when you find someone that makes you feel different than anyone ever has you don’t even notice your guard dropping, then one day you’re looking at him/her and you realize you’ve fallen head over heels and you freak out. You feel your heart racing and your temperature rise’s like your having a hot flash and you say things you shouldn’t, see the thing about that is you can’t take those words back they have been said and the damage is done. Then you feel like your world is coming apart and you ask yourself “why did I do that, what have I done, this person makes me feel like no one ever has, I miss them when they are not here, I just want to hold them close why have I messed things up so horribly”? There is one easy answer for those questions “fear”. You try to explain it differently and pray that the damage hasn’t been done, they may be confused however so are you right?

So my question to you is; do you think it is possible to break the pattern of running away from a possible romance?  I mean he or she could be the one.